Dear Rabbi Levi,
I am a "once-a-year Jew." I was raised with no Jewish education and my only exposure to Judaism was my synagogue attendance on Yom Kippur. Each year I make a point to be in a synagogue on that day, though the service is foreign to me and frankly I'd rather be somewhere else. Is there any value to my annual appearance?
Once-a-year Jew
Dear Jew,
There is no such thing as a once-a-year Jew. A Jew is a full-fledged Jew 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 365 days a year. No matter the lifestyle one chooses to live, nothing can compromise how innately Jewish a Jew is. The greatest proof to this assertion is the fact that you make the effort to attend a service on Yom Kippur each year. Despite your discomfort, you sense that this is the place to be - just because you are a Jew.
The overarching theme of Yom Kippur is the essential connection a Jew has with G-d. Notwithstanding the many misdeeds one may have committed throughout the year and despite that one’s relationship may seem strained, it is on this day that the unbreakable bond is revealed and the relationship is refreshed.
Once during the Neilah prayer, the Baal Shem Tov (Founder of the Chassidic movement) cried and prayed with more fervor than usual. His disciples understood that the prosecuting angel in heaven had put forth a harsh decree that the Baal Shem Tov was working hard to annul, and they also intensified their prayers and crying.
In the synagogue there was a young shepherd boy who was completely uneducated. Throughout the day he sat and stared at the prayer book without uttering a word.
As a shepherd, the boy knew the sounds made by all the different farm animals, and he especially admired the rooster’s crowing. When he heard the weeping and the outcries, his heart was also shattered and he cried out loudly, “Cock-a-doodle-do! G‑d, have mercy!”
The unexpected outburst caused a commotion among the worshippers, but surprisingly, immediately after this commotion the face of the Baal Shem Tov began to shine, and with a special melody he proceeded to complete the Yom Kippur service.
After Yom Kippur, the Baal Shem Tov related to his disciples that there had been an accusation leveled in heaven against a particular community, with the prosecution seeking their destruction. All of his entreaties on their behalf had borne no fruit.
However, suddenly the sound of the call of the shepherd boy was heard in heaven, and its sincerity brought great pleasure above, nullifying the harsh decree.
Your annual appearance for Yom Kippur services is extremely valuable. Even if you are not trained to follow along with the service, your presence causes great pleasure to G-d.
I encourage you to tap into your limitless reservoir of Jewishness by studying and discovering your beautiful heritage and by next year you may even enjoy Yom Kippur services!